Start

Start with:
Start to regret
Start to forget
Start to let go
Start to go on
And start to not ego.

Breakout.

To every mind there's a limit.
And for the heart just to ignore it.
Pass a smile today and you shall receive.
A bigger brighter moment than the past has give.

Cause yesterday is yesterday
And for tomorrow there's years to come to be filled with love and joy.
Ask no mercy upon regret.

No one to blame
What a fool
Such a shame
So lame

Yet.

Who cares it's not a matter of time.

Start.

Starting now.

Solitude

It is not about what happened and how things are now. I believe that I have found myself living a world full of insecurities and low esteem. Afraid of what people would think, afraid of being compared. And it's all in the mind. I may have over value myself and mostly under value. Rain has started and yoga didn't help the calm. But yet for sure. This is it. The main problem that led me to what I did for the past years but yet leaving me with good real friends and a conclusion that the past years has been about self acceptance and being true to myself. What I am and what I'm not. What I like and it doesn't matter what you don't like. It is the root of every little thing I felt before the "excuse problem" came along. This is what I've been trying to figure out when I told you I need some space. To figure out what I want, and what's wrong with me. And after years of every ups and down. Every laugh and tears. Every hello and goodbyes. Everything that happened brings me tonight to this conclusion that LOUDLY i'll say : I am insecure and I have low self esteem. Look at the girl who's being her and somehow maybe in the past some try to change her. I don't change but I'm growing. Hopefully sooner or later. Probably now. Convincing myself. I am "this". I am "that". I am not "them". I am not "you". I am "ME". I remember it was on 6th floor at my school the moment about feeling really awkward and I knew something is wrong (with me). Sadly we just cannot pleased everyone. Emotionally unstabble? is that a word or a definition of who I was. Emotionally unhappy. Yep. I used to be very ungrateful. No direction. And after years, the answer is myself. Hopefully this close every bad things bad timing bad thoughts. I am very pleased to meet you - dearest deepest side of me. I want to know you better and to treat you right this time. To love you more is to take care of every thoughts, body and act. To be blessed that I found you. And hopefully this will bring us to a growing young adult. 2 weeks notice to 24. And to close all of the sadness and welcoming the new era with joy and hope. That I am here to make a difference. For better or worst. I am here for a reason. And no one else have a task like mine.

Sincerely,
Your own heart

Confusius Confussion

I can't stop listening to this song. I can say that the current feelings while listening to this song now is just like a little smile in the heart with no object. no person. But about that feelings that we all once had and already gone that even u can't feel that anymore but u know in your memories u once felt that. I think it is a very light and cheer up song in a slightest way or just a tiny bitsy happiness on the music arrangement. LOveLOVELOVE.love it :)

"Tulus - Sewindu Lirik

Sudah sewindu ku di dekatmu
ada di setiap pagi, di sepanjang hari
tak mungkin bila engkau tak tahu
bila ku menyimpan rasa yang ku benam sejak lama

setiap pagi ku menunggu di depan pintu
siapkan senyum terbaikku agar cerah harimu
cukup bagiku melihatmu tersenyum manis
di setiap pagimu, siangmu, malammu

sesaat dia datang pesona bagai pangeran
dan beri kau harapan bualan cinta di masa depan
dan kau lupakan aku semua usahaku
semua pagi kita, semua malam kita

oh tak akan lagi ku menemuimu di depan pintu
dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu

setiap pagi ku menunggu di depan pintu
siapkan senyum terbaikku agar cerah harimu
cukup bagiku melihatmu tersenyum manis
di setiap pagimu, siangmu, malammu

sesaat dia datang pesona bagai pangeran
dan beri kau harapan bualan cinta di masa depan
dan kau lupakan aku semua usahaku
semua pagi kita, semua malam kita

oh tak akan lagi ku menemuimu di depan pintu
dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu
oh tak akan lagi ku menemuimu di depan pintu
dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu

jujur memang sakit di hati
bila kini nyatanya kau memilih dia
takkan lagi ku sebodoh ini
larut di dalam angan-angan tanpa tujuan

oh tak akan lagi ku menemuimu di depan pintu
dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu
oh tak akan lagi ku menemuimu di depan pintu
dan tak ada lagi tutur manis ku merayumu"

Link to his video --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpst_4m_c-E"

You , me , against the world.
later on.
Sewindu. :)
individually must go on. Life is too precious.